God Speaks

My how quickly another Sunday has rolled along. These weeks of 2012 are flying by already. The stores can't sell the Christmas left-overs and already we see Valentine candy and Easter eggs on the shelves. As I spend time in my Bible, I often mark when I am reading something and what I am praying about at that time. I am amazed at what God has brought me through and how He has taught me and made sure that I am growing through His purposes. I have grown so much, I can barely recognize what used to consume my thoughts and create worry for me. So, God is working on my soul in remarkable ways these past weeks. He speaks to me through undeniable ways. He removes ALL doubt that He is speaking directly to me. This will be very difficult for me to put into words but I will try my best. The Lord seems to be singling me out through His very gentle ways. Instead of screaming as we do to get someone’s attention, He gently drops a soft feather so that it lands perfectly on my nose every time. Through music, radio, sermons, devotions, group meetings and even dreams, He makes it clear He has been speaking to me. Infertility consumes my thoughts and I constantly have to turn those thoughts over to the Lord. At our women’s ministry we completed an activity where we identified our hindrances and created a plan to eliminate them. This was to make us a more effective Christian. One of my hindrances is worry. Each morning, before I get out of bed (literally), I hand my worry about infertility over to God. I place it with Him daily and throughout the day I try my best to focus on Him and allow Him to direct my Paths. One of the most interesting things God has done for me over the past few weeks is confirming His will for my life. I have asked Him in the past to remove the desire from my heart for a child if this was not in His will for my life, because at the end of the day, His will is what I desire more than ANYTHING. So I got real with God and said, “Seriously, if this is not what you would have for me, can You please remove this burning desire from my heart for a child. I can accept it God and move on.” He answered with a fiery, searing, undeniable desire that burns even deeper in my heart and soul. Ok, I say, I hear You loud and clear. We will have a child. That is good enough for me. When and how, I can leave up to You. With His strength of course, none of this could I do on my own.

“When I am afraid, I will trust in you, In God, whose work I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid, what can mortal man do to me?” Psalm 56:3-4